Did anyone else notice that?
Did anyone else notice it?
Did anyone else notice the fear in ITS eyes?
I’m not sure if IT’S sure if IT knows
whether or not IT feels like IT’S doing me a disservice
I wonder if the audience cares anymore
I wonder if they know which were the laughing moments
and which were the truths
It’s all in the subtlety of an eyelash
It’s all in the quick exhale and inhale of breath
It’s all in the way IT can’t hold my gaze for very long
Quicker to shed material, than to think of something different -
beyond ITS scope…
To think of potential, to dream of hope…
To misread my wide eyes for innocence
IT shows me how much IT hates me and loves me all at once.
IT lays ITS orifice on another
IT begs me to watch
to see how ugly and awful and thoughtless IT is…
to see how much a heart can break at ITS expense
to see how long I’ll stay, if I’ll stay…
It’s like a test I didn’t prepare for but should’ve known was coming.
IT shoos me away for that’s the only thing IT knows how to do
IT feels odd at the compassion IT was given, IT hadn’t seen that in awhile
IT remembers it as a strange sensation that made IT comfortable once
and IT even longed for IT sometimes, still
but year surpasses year and IT’S getting older
and more self-righteous and more set in ITS ways…
or at least that’s the excuse IT gives to ITSELF.
Love is a concept not accepted by IT anymore…
Passionless lust is all IT knows and can vouch for
and no doe-eyed depressive can change that.
The world is a stage
and not meant for the unglamorous weak
Any seasoned professional can tell you that.
I had a blast volunteering for the 2014 edition of the Rhode Island International Film Festival. It was a great opportunity to see some of the best new short and feature length films from around the world.
Here are a list of just some of my favorites. Go check them out and support independent film making!
Je suis Une Actrice (France)
I consider myself to be infinitely curious and therefore I often push myself beyond my comfort level to try something new and see what happens. This was one of those times.
Our small part in all of this: our piece entitled: “When Your Luck Runs Out On You”
ORIGINAL CONCEPT: “The Inspiration: A co-worker tragically lost her battle to cancer just over the weekend + I’ve been visiting a lot of bingo halls lately with my Mama, her friend, and a bunch of old people (I won 9 dollars once!) =
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(Unless they’re those fancy automatic sliding doors but that’s not the point, really…)
In today’s economy, everybody’s pinching their pennies and looking for solutions. It’s quite the hustle and ya’ve gotta do what ya’ve gotta do! Thankfully, we are fortunate to live in a society filled with so many philosophical voices (i.e. Rihanna, Ms. Couric) to advise us with our career goals. Female specimens of today can be anything, do anything, and eat anything/nothing that they want! We can be strippers, CEOs, professional toilet bowl cleaners…The sky’s the limit! Remember, whatever you end up doing, you just have to want it enough.
Music: “Money On My Mind” by Sam Smith
When life gives you lemons, point out the “baby ones.” (The half and half one is like me, awwwww).
“TEMPLE OF REGRESSION”
WE BROKE EACH OTHER’S HEARTS
YOU AND I
WE DON’T LIVE
EXTENDED GLAMOUROUS LIVES
THE ONES WE THOUGHT
WE WERE OWED BY THIS TIME
MY JAW’S BROKEN
AND NOTHING COMES EASILY…
YOU THINK I DON’T
AND I’M COMPLETELY
DON’T EXPECT ME
TO EXPLOIT THOSE VERY FEW
FOR THE SAKE OF ART…
IF I’M NO GOOD,
I’M NO GOOD
I’M GETTING TIRED OF TRYING.
HOW MANY BLOWS TO ONE’S EGO
CAN ONE PERSON TAKE?
HOW MANY REJECTIONS
CAN ONE SOUL RECEIVE?…
START TO WANE?
WE BROKE EACH OTHER’S
YOU AND I…
7/26/2014: We spent Saturday morning with the EMS Associates (the school for training EMT professionals), located in Providence, RI – friends played alcoholic party-goers, stabbing victims, etc. while I provided my makeup and camera services. Look at what I did to these poor souls!
Saturday night premiered “Death to Strawberry Moon” and a live performance as well at 95 Empire’s Black Box Theater. Check out “Death” here, without all the Mario Cart beepings and buzzings…